5 Point Somethings..

Tagged by Harini, and i just couldn say 'no'..So here it goes..Keep reading.

Five people on my shit list:

1)******* . The person who hacked my previous blog, and has been trying desperately to create numerous problems in my life
2) All those bloody politicians who keep ruining this country.
3) George Bush..
4) Promoters of any kind of racial/ caste or any kind of discrimination. According to me everything in the world can be classified only under ‘living’ and ‘non living’
5) waiting to be filled... :P

Five guilty pleasures:

1) Ice cream.. loads of it (btw I’m not even guilty about this)
2) Watching Tom and jerry.. I know I’m grown up but some cartoons are just too good to miss out on..
3) Having night out’s with friends… and just freaking out..
4) Driving fast, real fast…(esp when u aren’t sure where ur heading to)
5) Going and spending time on the beach late in the night.

Five things I never want to forget:

There are many more things that I wanted to write here…but anyways shall stick with 5

1) My Best friend… U shall always be remembered and cared for, no matter what u say, think or feel about this
2) The project that I had been a part of when I was in my engg 2nd year.. Had an awesome time, night outs, hard work, team work, movies(ok this wasn’t a part of the plan but who cares..)and to top it up we won the First Prize too. This is what I call cherry on the cake
3) That I am the topper of my College and I am the Best..
4) My first Pay Check
5) That no matter who you are, what u think and what you feel doesn’t matter unless U do something about it.

Five things I wish to forget:

1) All those break up’s and fall outs that I’ve had for reasons that weren’t strong enough. If past could be re written…..hmmm..
2) Failures.. I’d like to forget the failures and only learn the lesson that it has taught me.. Somehow, I feel failure is too big a price you pay for the lesson it teaches you
3) Losing some/ many people who mean soo much to me (yes they still do..)
4) That there was a time not so long ago when I was not at all needed by anyone. That’s one of the worst feelings you can have..
5) Anger, Hatred

Five exotic dishes I've tried:

1) Titanic…@Havemore ..this will be one of the all time fav of mine..
2) Death By Choclate ..dunno where
3) The Pani Puri and the Samosa Radga @Bombay Chat.. not exotic dishes, but the fact that me Hit and Derek used to go there soo very often, makes it very special.
( I still wonder how the shop next to it manages to meet the ends?? Right Hit and Derek)

4) Anything @Gokul Chat… I miss the late night visits to this place..Used to race away on the bikes to this place around 1 A.M that too during exams season..
5) That’s it… I can survive without great exotic food, but its difficult to survive without good company..

Five loves of my life (not necesarily in that order):

1) Mom ..(Ur the Bestest Mom ever)
2) My Gal… ;-) (Waiting for ya…)
3) My friends..(only the real true one’s)
4) Music, Dance, books
5) Writing.. (Someday I’ll write a book.and I’m gonna name it “Words Of Silence”)

Strangest Dream:

I’ll like to write another post about this sometime…so wait for it till then…

Five most valued possessions:

1) Freedom
2) Memories
3) All my friends
4) Kaddu’s letters
5) Other things…actually there are a lot many..i give them the 5th position..

Five favorite superheroes:

1) Me.. Hee hee..i once had a dream that I had become a combo of Superman and He-man.
2) The soldiers of the nation.
3) Napoleon
4) King Arthur
Only 4 in this list here….


Five preferable modes of suicide:

I have nothing much to say here, but I always wanted to die for a reason. When we can live a life of meaning and reason, why not die for one too..Everyone will have to die someday, there is no such thing as immortal and there isn’t anything like ‘End’ either.. I believe death is also a part, infact more of a phase of life, not an end of life as most people put it as.. and if one day I find out that there isn’t anything in my life that’s worth dying for, for me that’s a good enough reason to stop living..

Close brushes with death/danger:

Many, just too many times I’ve been so close to danger, too many times I’ve been a part of an accident, burnt up my hand, sprained my ankle hundreds of times, and the list goes on…
Death…well, once when I was a kid I had fallen off the balcony of my building, luckily there was lotsa mud down there to reduce the impact, else I wouldn’t have been tagged today…

Pondering...

“Its fate !!U cant change it, accept it and move on” but I just cant move on with life, just live it as it comes along, keep gathering fallen pieces of happiness here and there when I know that I’m worthy of more. I cant just see time changing my life in front of my eyes as I stand there inebriated by the doses of consoling I get from people. If Life’s a battle then destiny is the enemy, if you don’t fight it and act like an amicable, lively, servile follower you are screwing up yourselves. Its your life, u should decide the way things go in your life..it is you and solely you who ought to choose the people who’d be a part of your life..it is you who should have some control on your future, its not necessary that you succeed in every endeavor that you undertake.. but atleast show up a decent enough fight or resitance against the so called destiny to lead a life that you truly want, to get something that u think you deserve… coz if you don’t, then who will??

How many people have you seen who have had a rough and a so called hard life?? How many people you have seen to whom life seemed to be unfair?? How many tragedies have you heard of happening to people around you?? How many times have you been shocked to hear something ‘bad’??
How many times have you been the victim??
How many times have you thought of someone as a brave person coz he’s/she’s survived so many things, undergone soo much grief, been through soo much in his/her life?? I have come across quite a few people who say “I’m over it now”, “ That was my past, now I’m living in my present and I live in today”, “That was an episode in my life that had to happen, but I’m out of it now and am ready to start all over again”

Now will anyone tell me how does a person start all over again??? Coz for me the start has already been made, u can never ever go and change any f**king thing about it. One more thing astounds me, Why does anyone want to forget the past?? Just coz its bad?? How many people would want to forget or let go of their past even if it was happy?? Noone would even get a thought about doing something even close to that.. but just coz you haven’t got something that you badly wanted from life in the past makes you want to erase the part of your life that you stemmed from.. Unfair, very unfair..(And they say life’s unfair)
Fight your best to get what you want, but never be ashamed of your past, never try to break away from it.. Remember, You are today what you are coz you were someone yesterday..
Stop running away from yourself, turn and look around once in a while, embrace your past and take it with you in your journey of life…and one fine day when you turn back and look at the life you have led, you’ll realize that you are special and it’s all worth if (coz noone has a life like yours), coz you wouldn’t have seen yourself as you are now even if a single thing would’ve changed its course..There are people who will disagree but I believe that its better to fight for a cause or for something/someone than just die someday without knowing why u lived at all

Memories are special, its like a one time investment which promises returns for a lifetime..

and still i walk alone...

And i choose not to love you anymore..

I am oxygen that some will never breath,
yet the euphoria found in suffocation.
I am love that some will ever embrace,
yet the delight found in heartbreak.
I am strength that some will never use,
yet the victory found in weakness.
I am the food that some will never eat,
yet the peace found in starvation.
I am dreams that some will never see,
yet the satisfaction in sleplessness.
I am life that some will never live,
yet the oblivion found in death.

I am everything that u want me to be,
but i am not myself anymore...

There are people i know do not care for me anymore, if they ever really cared for me in the true sense.I Shall never know if what was earlier was really true or the picture that i see now is the real one.. but the fact remain "U were never there for me, when i really needed someone to be with me the most. U were never really bothered to find out how i was,what was i going through.U got all the signals that i needed to meet you, i needed to talk and say things to you, but u made your choices, and now i make mine.."

"Actions always mean more than words, actions cant be faked, words can be played around with".

Saying all this doesnt matter anymore, but i just couldn keep it to myself..It just had to come out. Please dont ask me what all this is about.. 'Silence' is and will be my only reply..

I have a new Boss...

[13:54] Me: plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz gimme one chance....
[13:54] She: nahi never
13:55] She: do u promise to do all my work?
[13:55] Me: ok i'll try my best
[13:56] Me: now can u be my boss???
[13:56] She: and ur salary will be Rs.100 per month
[13:56] Me: no i want 110
[13:56] She: nahi no way
[13:56] Me: plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
[13:56] She: 100 else ure not hired
[13:57] Me: ok ok...105..this will be fine naa...
[13:57] She: 10Rs increment after 1 yr
[13:57] Me: i want 105....else..
[13:57] She: nahi i cant decid tht...hr will...but i say NO
[13:57] She: thik hai 105
[13:58] Me: ok boss...when can i go onsite???
[13:58] She: after 10 yrs
[13:59] Me: 10 yrs???
[13:59] She: haan
[13:59] Me: what if i show remarkable performance..can i go earlier than that then???
[14:00] She: maybe in 9 and a half yrs
[14:00] She: no less than tht
[14:00] Me: nahin i wanna go in 9 yrs...
[14:00] She: noooooooooooooooooooooo
[14:00] Me: u see i cant waste time...
[14:00] She: i cant compromise on everything
[14:00] Me: u want me to wait 6 months more..
[14:00] She: as it is i'm giving u too much sal
[14:00] Me: 9 yrs is ok...lekin 9 yrs 6 months..
[14:01] Me: outrageous[14:01]
[14:01] She: nahi 9 yrs 6 months
[14:01] She: join if u want
[14:01] She: else go
[14:01] Me: ok ok..cool down boss
[14:01] She: ;-)
[14:01] Me: y do u talk abt going :-(
[14:02] She: hmmm
[14:03] Me: ok, how many leave's can i take in a year???
[14:03] She: 2
[14:03] Me: ....say the number after 2
[14:04] She: 2 leaves per yr
[14:04] She: thts all
[14:04] Me: only 2???
[14:04] She: n u have to work on saturdays also
14:04] Me: aiela
[14:04] She: half day
[14:04] She: on sat 10am - 2pm
[14:04] Me: is this a school???
[14:05] She: weekdays - 9am - 9pm
14:05] Me: btw... on which platform i will work on??
[14:05] Me: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
[14:05] She: 1 hr lunch Brk
[14:05] Me: 9 to 9
[14:05] Me: :O
[14:05] She: haan
[14:06] She: u'll work on batch processing systems...we dont have enough funding for computers
[14:06] Me: hmmm.. if i finish my work early sometime, can i take u out for dinner???
[14:06] She: in ur 105Rs salary?
[14:06] She: i dont think so
[14:07] She: road pe khaayenge kya??
[14:07] Me: wont i get a 'dating' allowance???
[14:07] She: if u perform well for 5 yrs, u'll get an extra allowance of Rs.50 per month
[14:07] Me: hmmm.....
[14:08] Me: btw what were u saying abt the work.. and platform...
[14:08] She: batch processing systems
[14:08] She: no modern computers
[14:09] Me: hey..
[14:09] Me: i have experience only in one platform...
[14:09] She: ?
[14:09] She: which one?
[14:10] Me: Railway
[14:10] She: haan tho coolie ka kaam de doo??
[14:11] Me: :-(
[14:11] Me: i had got a promotion 2 yrs back from that post
[14:11] She: acchhaaaaaaaa
[14:11] Me: yaa...
[14:11] She: abhi kya karte ho?
[14:11] Me: its a very loooong story....
[14:11] Me: abhi...i outsource that
[14:12] She: hmmm
[14:12] Me: so i started getting along in comp's
[14:12] She: dekh dont waste my time...do u want the job or not?
[14:12] Me: lemme tell u my strengths
[14:13] Me: suno na suno naa sun loo naa..( i can sing too )
[14:14] She: ok can u operate batch proc systems?
[14:14] Me: i dunno what that is.. but i can learn...i am a very fast learner..
[14:14] Me: i learnt sending mails in only 2 months...
[14:14] Me: amd i have successfully sent 100 mails so far
[14:15] She: hmmm
[14:15] Me: now temme what do u think?? can i go onsite after 9 yrs???
[14:15] She: so now i know u wil be wastin lot of my company's bandwidth
[14:15] She: with ur emails
[14:15] She: :X
[14:15] Me: noo...
[14:16] Me: i will use the net only from the govt library, where net is free for all
[14:16] Me: i go there everyday
[14:16] She: haan thik hai...but stil 9.5yrs no reduction in tht
[14:16] Me: and u know that librarian likes me a lot...she's a huge fan of me...
[14:17] She: why r u tellin me these stories?
[14:17] Me: she takes my autograph everyday before i leave.. have u ever met sucha a fan before???
[14:17] She: yaar kahaniyaan mat suna
14:17] Me: to show that i have good inter personal skills also
[14:17] She: i only need u to operate batch systems...no interaction with other ppl
[14:18] Me: hmmm....
[14:18] Me: ok madam... is there anything else that i need to know???
[14:18] She: when can u join us?
[14:19] Me: Hmmmmmm.....When i come there.
[14:19] She: u'll have to join on that day itself
[14:19] She: no delays
[14:20] Me: ok..i'll join u on the railway station itself
[14:20] She: no come down to our office
[14:20] Me: hmmm...
[14:20] Me: do i need to start workin on that day itself??
[14:21] She: yes..u'll have a 1hr training
[14:21] Me: madam ji...ther is a small problem
[14:21] Me: i have a frnd, and i need to meet her on that day itself..
[14:22] She: u can meet after 9pm
[14:22] Me: after 9 PM...she would mind probably...
[14:22] Me: i hope u understand
14:22] She: ok i'll let u go at 8pm
[14:22] Me: i will work overtime and make up for the lost hrs of work
[14:23] She: haan thik hai
[14:23] She: 8pm
[14:23] Me: and i will have my lunch break for 3 hrs...
[14:23] She: no way..our gates r locked everyday til 9pm
[14:23] She: u cant go out
14:23] Me: i'll jump out..
[14:23] Me: thats another of my speciality
[14:23] She: nah...we have electocuted walls...
[14:24] Me: i will drink red bull, it'll gimme wings and i'll fly out
[14:24] She: X(
[14:24] She: i wont hire u
[14:24] She: ure rejected
[14:24] Me: :-(
[14:25] Me: ok madam ji.. i'll work
[14:25] Me: i wont run away or fly away
14:25] Me: plzzz i need this job very badly
[14:25] Me: dont reject me
[14:25] She: haan thik hai
[14:25] She: fine
[14:25] She: come to my office...

The text above has been duly edited and abridged, of course, with prior permission from my Boss( well, almost)... ;-)